And to be honest I don't remember much of it - well at least not in the middle of the night.
But how has everyone been? I am doing fine, I have been seeing a counselor and I have something very big to tell all of you. I can't do it here, because certain people know about this page and are not doubt watching, but I think I have finally figured out a way to let you all know.
And which of you were sending me messages to come back and check on Da? Because I swear it's been like this buzzing in the back of my head for a month now - a month in which I couldn't spare a moment.
Speaking of which I am unemployed and unable to job hunt at the moment as I am not sure where I am going to live although I am fairly certain I will be with my father for one more year. Eh, late blooming - it's kind of a bitch. Moving around constantly and living in a trailer wasn't exactly the best experience of my life either, but we lived in a nice, big house before, and I am staying at my grandparents' house now for a set amount of time, and Dad's working on finding a place to settle down. It's been an interesting winter.
I'm 20 now. Fuck, I guess that means I've been lurking around here for three years now. Cheers to that and many more good years to come.
I heard about the Hot Topic art theiving thing. Everyone alright? And what the fuck is up with all the anti-feminist posts tonight? That. Is. Bullshit.
Also, guys, I'm terribly sorry, I have crossed over to the dark side... I'm seeing someone.... and that someone cosplays as Hojo. And I ship HojoVin now, in addition to Valenwind. Don't ask me why. I don't know. It just happened. OTL
Also, everyone who has been poked by the stick I had up my ass over religion needn't worry anymore. I am not a Christian, I honestly don't think I ever was. It was a coping mechanism forced upon me by fearful people and I think I'd rather be brave even in the off-hand event that I am sent to hell for it. A lot has happened this last year. I let an old lover go their way so I could go mine, had a past life regression and have learned literally everything about boundaries (which apparently I didn't know jack-shit about before). At this point I've figured out all of what I'm NOT going to do and believe anymore and am not entirely sure what to fill the gash that cancer, if you will, left behind, or if I need to. I'm not to worried aout it and I'm currently reading Phyllis Curott's "Book of Shadows" .
I have missed you all. I'm not sure how much time I'll have for this website in the near future, but I'm not going away and deleting this page anytime soon. So no worries, Avi will be hanging around and as always, if you REALLY need to contact me, I still check my messages here.
Thank you all for the birthday wishes.